So Many Thoughts

In this new year, I knew this was to be a year needing MANY answers for our family. This week is being spent in prayer and petition for guidance. With a now possible reality possibly taking place, it has brought up numerous emotions evoking a whole new perspective on change.

I have a love/hate relationship with change. I don't do well with change, but at the same time will demand it. Well, maybe demand the change that I have control over. I like to have control, like most others do enjoy. I will plan things or fly by the seat of my pants plan when in the heat of the moment at work.

This possible new change brings the first half to be one I do control.It will allow me to have much more control over my life. But on the other side of the change, a lot is out of my control and will push my faith into a stream I have not yet walked through. It would tease my urge to control something I use to have control over, but due to my choice, I will no longer have the power I once had. It is a power that comes with great stress and responsibility. It is a power that will grant me a different kind which comes also with the former, but in a more personal and intimate setting.

If God does open the doors we are knocking on this week and grants a peace only HE can bestow...I will certainly let you all know.

Blessings and prayers.

Valentine's or Single's Awareness Day

However you describe it, this day brings on a host of issues for either side. Singles embrace more bitterness while couples eat up every sappy card and squeeze teddy bears extra tight.

I think the most anticipated and really enjoyed Valentine's Day I had was when Matt and I were still dating. You were happy to have someone special to celebrate it, but unscathed by the harsh realities of how hard it can be to really LOVE a person selflessly in marriage.

With our wedding anniversary only 7 days past this momentous celebration among card companies, chocolatiers and florists...it kinda trumps most of the excitement traditionally found in Valentines. With money being tight, we rather invest the extra into the day that should matter most in the year. Vows which have been the toughest to keep day in and day out. Throw kids into the mix and you've got sand thrown into your eyes as you try and see past the exhaustion it takes to keep a family together while not ignoring your spouse.

As much as you might hate to agree...Valentines Day is more for the singles than married. You haven't built up a tolerance to all the oxytocin in your system, so everything is new and dare I say...exciting? Yet, if you were to try and convince me of this while single, I would have been tempted to spit in your face, hehe.  

So that is my take. Anyone else agree or disagree?

Recent Statuses

You know you have REALLY entered your 30's when your excited to try out a new steam mop on a Saturday night....

I think Folgers had it all wrong. The best part of waking up is poopaghetin contained in a toddlers fleece sleeper. I don't know if there is anything left to shock me as a mother.

What wonderful awkward nostalgia!

I like my phone...I really do. But I however, do not like the emergency dialer button that comes up after failed lock screen attempts....Yeah....Eliza called 911 TWICE and they called back 2 times...all while I was unaware that she had swiped my phone this morning.

Party Party!

Birthday Boy

Last night my baby boy went to sleep the last time to be chronologically a baby. Then he woke up as this, momma's big boy!

Today will be pretty chill with the standard routine, but with a few extra toys from family which greeted him when we woke up.

Currently Nolan

I sit here typing this on the eve of his first huge milestone of turning one year. Wowwee, how did that happen? I am excited and sad, all mixed together for this day. It is interesting to see how he has changed into this growing individual and the freedom from the constant care we started out at.

Recent Musings 

When standing and only holding on to one thing...as soon as its not within reach, he'll immediately plunk his butt down to safety.

Loves to roll cars on the floor.

Enjoys climbing up and down his sisters trampoline.

Bangs most toys on the table.

Quietly has transitioned away from a bottle and enjoys sippy cups.

Holds and eats his own fruit pouch.

Finds fun in the crawl tunnel.

Currently in a biting phase. He'll nip at your clothes/skin or furniture when he's frustrated.

Wearing mostly 12 month clothes and size 3 diapers.

Throws a fit when sister takes away his food or sippy.

Doesn't enjoy diaper or clothing changes and fights them with rolling over in mid process.

Currently Eliza

It occurred to me that I should write down some things about Eliza for prosperity sake as I know I'll want to know some of these Eliza-isms later on down the road.

Speech
Ay nane = Air Plane
Ee ub = Get Up
Pee Bah = Peanut Butter
Done = Phone
Dee Dee = TV
Duck = Stuck
Docks = Socks
Ee Naw = Evan

Recent Musings
A new maniacal laugh
Coloring on the TV
Jumping off the trampoline and on to the couch
Eating snow whenever she can, even if its from the bottom of her boots
Wrestling with her brother
LOVES cereal
Requests Jake and the Neverland Pirates whenever she can
When talking to grandparents, will take the phone and give a house tour so they can see everything
Likes to tear apart her bed each day and toss bedding on the floor
Requests her friends Evan and Dorothy